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# The Conversation We Keep Avoiding and Why That's Making It Worse
A young man came to see me after a Sunday service — one of those conversations where he'd clearly rehearsed the opening line three times in the car park before coming in. He wasn't asking about doctrine. He was asking whether God was disgusted with him. He'd been a Christian for four years, led a small group, read his Bible most mornings. And he'd never once heard this subject mentioned from a pulpit, in a pastoral letter, or in a discipleship course. The silence, he told me, felt like its own answer.
I have had versions of this conversation more times than I can count. Sometimes it is a man in his thirties who has been quietly catastrophising for fifteen years. Sometimes it is a woman who has been told the issue is "really a male thing" and now carries an extra layer of shame about even having a question. Sometimes it is a teenager whose youth leader handled it with a shrug and a joke. The texture varies. The underlying ache does not.
So let me try to write something honest about a subject the British church, in particular, prefers to talk around rather than through. I am not going to flatten the complexity. I am not going to pretend scripture says what it does not say, nor pretend it says nothing at all. I want to write the article I wish someone had handed that young man years before he found himself across a table from me, hands shaking around a paper cup of bad coffee.
## The Silence Is Not Neutral
There is a peculiar Anglican fiction that if we simply do not mention something, it goes away — or at least becomes someone else's problem. This is not pastoral restraint. It is abdication dressed up as decorum.
When the church does not speak about a thing, the world does — and the world's preachers on this subject are not chastened theologians but algorithmic feeds, locker-room jokes, therapeutic influencers, and pornography sites with better UX than most denominational websites. The silence does not create a clean space where people can think for themselves. It creates a noisy space where the loudest voices win by default.
I have seen the consequences. Men in their forties who still cannot pray properly because they assume God is permanently furious with them. Women who have absorbed a vague sense that their own bodies are spiritually suspect without ever being told why. Married couples whose intimacy is fractured because one or both partners brought a stockpile of unprocessed shame into the bedroom. Young Christians who simply stopped believing in the gospel's offer of grace, because if God could not be talked to about *this*, perhaps he could not be talked to at all.
Shame, as any half-decent pastor knows, expands to fill the space that teaching vacates. And the pastoral cost of that expansion is staggering.
## What the Text Actually Says (and Doesn't)
Let us be careful here, because carelessness in either direction has done real damage.
The first thing to say plainly is that the Bible does not contain a verse that addresses masturbation directly. There is no command, no prohibition, no narrative case study. None. The English word does not appear because the concept, in the modern sense, is not the subject of any biblical text.
The passage most often pressed into service is Genesis 38 — the story of Onan, who "spilled his seed on the ground" rather than fulfil his levirate duty to his deceased brother's widow. The text tells us that "what he did was wicked in the Lord's sight, and the Lord put him to death." For centuries this verse has been wielded as the proof text for prohibiting masturbation, hence the word "onanism."
But read it carefully. Onan's sin is not masturbation. He is having intercourse with Tamar. His sin is the deliberate refusal to give her a child, robbing her of the protection and inheritance the levirate marriage was designed to provide. He uses her body for his pleasure while denying her the justice the law required. It is a story about exploitation and covenant-breaking, not about a solitary act in a locked bathroom. To read it otherwise is, to put it bluntly, to misread it.
The second cluster of texts often invoked is the New Testament's language of *porneia* — sexual immorality. Paul uses it repeatedly: in 1 Corinthians 6, in 1 Thessalonians 4, in Galatians 5. The word is broad. It covers prostitution, adultery, incest, and the general category of sexual sin as understood in the Jewish moral tradition. Some translators and ethicists argue that masturbation falls under its umbrella; others argue it does not. The honest answer is that *porneia* is a category word, and the New Testament writers nowhere itemise its contents in a way that settles the question.
The third and most important text is Matthew 5:27-28, where Jesus says that whoever looks at a woman lustfully has already committed adultery with her in his heart. This passage is genuinely relevant — and we will come to it properly in a moment — but it is not a verse about masturbation. It is a verse about lust, fantasy, and the orientation of the heart. The two overlap, often heavily, but they are not identical, and conflating them has caused enormous damage.
So where does that leave us? It leaves us with this: scripture speaks with great seriousness about lust, fantasy, sexual exploitation, and the use of others for one's own gratification. It does not address the physiological act of masturbation as such. Any honest pastoral theology has to begin by holding both of those facts together.
## Why We Invented a Proof Text
The question worth asking is why the church, particularly in the modern West, has been so insistent on producing a clear biblical prohibition where the text does not supply one.
Part of the answer is medical. The nineteenth century saw a flowering of pseudo-science about the supposed physical and mental consequences of "self-abuse" — everything from blindness to insanity. Sylvester Graham invented his eponymous crackers partly to suppress libido. John Harvey Kellogg, of cornflakes fame, was an even more enthusiastic crusader. This was not, originally, a theological project. It was a hygienic and moral panic that the church baptised after the fact, often by reaching back to Onan and reading him in light of Victorian anxieties.
Part of the answer is Augustinian. Augustine, who wrestled honestly with his own sexual history in the *Confessions*, bequeathed to the Western church a deep suspicion of sexual desire as such — not just disordered desire, but desire itself. "Give me chastity and continence, but not yet," he prays, with disarming honesty. His pastoral concern was real, and his self-knowledge formidable. But the framework he built tilted the church toward treating the body's sexuality as the problem to be managed rather than the gift to be ordered. We are still living with the tilt.
And part of the answer — this is the uncomfortable bit — is the one Nietzsche put on the table and refused to remove. In *The Genealogy of Morals* he argued that much of what calls itself Christian morality is really a mechanism of control, a way for the weak to bind the strong by inducing guilt. I think Nietzsche is wrong about the gospel in almost every important respect. But he is not entirely wrong about the church. There have been moments — many moments , when Christian moral teaching about sex has functioned less as a path to flourishing and more as a tool of social control, particularly over young men and almost always over women. Pretending otherwise is dishonest.
The result is a tradition that has often spoken with more confidence than scripture warrants, attached more shame than scripture sanctions, and reinforced cultural anxieties under the cover of biblical authority. That is not faithfulness. It is something closer to its opposite.
## Lust, Fantasy, and the Heart, Where Scripture Does Speak
None of this means scripture has nothing to say. It says a great deal. It just says it in a different place than we have been pointing.
Jesus is unambiguous: "Everyone who looks at a woman with lustful intent has already committed adultery with her in his heart" (Matthew 5:28). The Greek verb here is not the passing glance but the settled, cultivated gaze, the willed indulgence of fantasy. Jesus is not condemning the involuntary stir of desire that comes with being a living human body. He is condemning the deliberate cultivation of another person, or an image of another person, as an object for one's private use.
This matters enormously for our subject, because the honest pastoral question about masturbation is almost never about the physical act in isolation. It is about what is happening in the mind and heart while the act occurs. And in the era of unlimited pornography, which is to say, our era, the two are very often fused. The pastoral problem is rarely a discrete physiological release. It is the slow shaping of desire through repeated, willed engagement with images of people who exist as commodities for consumption.
Paul makes a related point in 1 Thessalonians 4: "Each of you should learn to control your own body in a way that is holy and honourable, not in passionate lust like the pagans, who do not know God." The contrast is not body versus spirit. It is controlled body versus uncontrolled body, a body whose desires are ordered toward love versus a body whose desires are ordered toward consumption.
This is where I think the conversation should actually live. Not in a forensic argument about whether a single physiological act is technically permitted, but in the older and harder question of formation: what are my desires being shaped toward, and by what, and with whom, and to what end?
That is a question scripture asks loudly. We have just been refusing to hear it because we have been busy arguing about Onan.
## The Pastoral Wreckage of Getting This Wrong in Both Directions
I want to describe two real pastoral failures, because abstraction lets us off too easily.
The first is the man I will call James. James grew up in a serious evangelical home, the kind where these things were spoken of, but only in one register: as catastrophic moral failure. He was told, repeatedly, that masturbation was sin, that pornography was its inevitable companion, that yielding to either meant betraying Christ and grieving the Spirit. By the time I met him, James was thirty-two, married, and quietly drowning. He had not been able to receive communion without an internal spasm of self-loathing for as long as he could remember. His marriage was strained because he could not separate the language of shame from the experience of his own body. He had constructed an internal courtroom in which he was always on trial and never acquitted. The gospel, in any meaningful sense, had not reached him. What he had received was not Jesus. It was a moral code wearing Jesus's name badge.
The second is the woman I will call Hannah. Hannah came up through a different stream, a London church that had reacted, understandably, against the shame-based teaching of an earlier generation. Her youth pastor had once said, breezily, that masturbation was "totally fine, just don't watch porn." The advice was meant kindly. It was also useless. Because Hannah had never been given any framework for thinking about her sexuality as a whole, about what her desires were for, about how habits formed her, about the difference between an isolated act and a pattern of self-soothing that had become her default response to every form of loneliness in a city that produces loneliness with industrial efficiency. By the time she sat in front of me, she did not feel guilty. She felt hollow. The "it's totally fine" line had not freed her. It had simply ensured no one would talk to her about it again.
These are not unusual stories. They are the stories. And they are produced by the same underlying failure, the refusal of the church to do the patient, careful, embodied work of pastoral theology in this area. Crushing shame and breezy permissiveness are not opposites. They are two products of the same evasion.
## What Wisdom Actually Looks Like Here
So what would honest pastoral wisdom look like?
It would start by refusing both the maximalist condemnation and the minimalist dismissal. Scripture does not give us a clear prohibition. Scripture also does not give us a permission slip. What scripture gives us is something both more demanding and more humane: a vision of the body, of desire, and of sexuality as gifts ordered toward love, communion, and the worship of God.
Paul's line in 1 Corinthians 6 and again in 10 is the one I keep returning to: "All things are lawful, but not all things are helpful." It is a verse that resists both legalism and licence. Paul is not handing out a permission slip, read the surrounding verses and you will find some of his most strenuous teaching on the body. But he is also refusing to add prohibitions where God has not added them. The question he wants the Corinthians to ask is not only "is this forbidden?" but "is this forming me toward Christ or away from him?"
Applied here, that means asking some real questions:
- Is what I am doing isolating me from the people God has given me to love, or releasing me to love them more freely?
- Is it cultivating fantasy that uses other people as commodities, or is it a relatively minor matter of bodily experience that occupies very little of my interior life?
- Is it a habit that owns me, or one I genuinely hold lightly?
- Is it bound up with pornography, which scripture's teaching on lust addresses directly, or genuinely separable from it?
- Is it functioning as a substitute for the harder work of intimacy, vulnerability, or prayer?
These are not yes/no questions. They are the questions of someone trying to live a whole life in front of God. And the answers will vary, between people, between seasons, between marriages and singleness, between the twenty-year-old and the fifty-year-old. The pastoral task is not to issue a ruling. It is to help people ask the questions honestly and to keep asking them.
What I will say is this: in my experience, the people who handle this area with the most integrity are not the ones who have resolved it cleanly in either direction. They are the ones who have learned to talk about it without panic, to bring it into the light of friendship and prayer, and to refuse both the shame spiral and the shrug.
## The Conversation Worth Having
Which brings me back to the young man in the church café, and to you, reading this.
If you are a Christian who has carried shame about this for years, I want to say plainly: God is not disgusted with you. The gospel of Jesus Christ is not a thinner, more conditional version of itself when applied to your sexuality. The blood of Christ is sufficient. The Spirit of Christ is at work in you. The Father of Christ is, this moment, looking at you with the same love with which he looked at his Son at the Jordan. Whatever your last week has held, that is the ground on which you stand. Begin there. Begin every day there.
If you are a pastor, a small group leader, a parent, a friend, please find a way to open this conversation in the rooms where you have influence. Not as a sermon series with a clever title. Not as a "men's breakfast" with an awkward speaker. As an ordinary part of discipleship, woven into how you teach about the body, about formation, about prayer, about marriage and singleness. The discomfort of speaking is real. The damage of silence is greater. I have seen both up close, and there is no comparison.
If you are someone who has been told this is "totally fine" and walked away unsatisfied, trust the unsatisfaction. It is telling you something true. Your sexuality is not a triviality to be processed and dismissed. It is bound up with who you are becoming, with how you love, with what your desires are being trained to want. That deserves a more serious conversation than the one you have been offered.
The church in our cities, divided, distracted, frequently embarrassed about its own body, is not well served by another generation of Christians who learned that this subject was unspeakable. We have the resources for a better conversation. We have scripture, read honestly. We have a tradition, weighed critically. We have the Spirit, who leads into truth. We have one another, when we are brave enough to ask for help.
"He has shown you, O mortal, what is good. And what does the Lord require of you? To act justly and to love mercy and to walk humbly with your God" (Micah 6:8).
Including in this. Especially in this.